Two weeks ago there was angst and agony at the mere thought of the two week break in between school and camp. I’d be lying if I said it was the first time I felt this level of anxiety, but it seems to come a couple weeks before every break. We are all such creatures of our schedule that the thought of unstructured time makes my blood boil.
Two weeks ago there was a noticeable difference with Drew’s behavior at school. It was almost as if he could sense the calm before the storm. Things with school were starting to wrap up. There’s a level of uncertainty that comes with starting camp, even if it is at the same place he attends school. There was just an agitation in the air.
With each break, I sigh a big sigh of relief when it’s over. Not because it was horrible or unbearable, but because I (and really so does Drew) get uneasy just thinking about what we will do to fill up our days. I blink, though, and its over. So, per usual, it was anxiety wasted on the idea of what was to come, not the realty.
The realty is that between family members longing for some undivided attention with the kids, play dates that were near impossible with everyone’s crazy school schedules, my regimented gym time, errands galore and just some unscheduled fun, break is crazy busy and we never have any problems filling up our days. After all, a trip where we get the pets’ food turns into an exciting outing…
Sometime around August when several LONG weeks of break between camp and school are looming, I’m sure I will feel the angst set in all over again. Please feel free to remind me that:
a) I really do love spending unscheduled time with my kids despite how nerve-wracking it feels in the anticipation.
b) I have tons of mommy friends that I love spending time with and could potentially fill up every day with play dates.
c) I’m blessed to belong to a gym that I am more than happy spending seven days a week at (I know, I’m kinda crazy).
d) I have amazing family that loves to spend time with us (now, who really are the crazy ones?!?).
e) Time goes so fast no matter how long the span is, so just enjoy it and stop over-analyzing it (yeah, I’m sure that will happen 🙂