Saying Goodbye is Hard to Do

I’ve never been one for goodbyes. I prefer “see you later” or something more non-committal than an actual goodbye. I’m not exactly sure why I despise saying goodbye but I usually try to avoid saying goodbye at all costs.

As my time at my job is winding down I’m faced with approaching those goodbyes. I visit offices weekly and it’s quite possible they won’t even notice I’m gone. Maybe at some point it will occur to someone that they haven’t seen that friendly girl with the weird name but that’s about it. So fortunately for me, I can just slide out without anyone shedding a tear.

Despite the impact (or lack therof) I may make on these offices, I really do have the best job. I make my own schedule, am out in the world meeting all different types of people, interacting with some very bright (or not so bright) doctors, etc. And with all the benefits, the biggest downfall has been that it can be very isolating. I have a good relationship with my partner and boss but I don’t really have true coworkers that I interact with on a daily basis. And because of that, no one is exactly throwing me a farewell party.

As I mentioned before, I’m not looking for a long tearful goodbye. It would be nice, however, for some goodbye. June 30 is my last day of work. At the end of the day, I will box up and ship back my computer. At the end of the day, I will meet up with someone who will take my company car. At the end of the day, my career will be over. I will be standing there wishing there was someone to say goodbye to because in some ways that would be easier.