They are, who they are

On the way to school today, Drew laughed at my for thinking the Trailblazers were a hockey team. That’s right, my four year old couldn’t believe that I was unfamiliar with the Portland Trailblazers. And maybe you are reading this thinking that he’s right. Although my sports knowledge is below par, I think the remarkable point is that my four year old does know who the Portland Trailblazers are. He is 150% boy, through and through.

At home with Gabby today, we played a hard core version of beauty shop. There were curlers, makeup and nail polish involved. After we completed that, we proceeded to play with her dollhouse. She couldn’t survive in this household if she didn’t know how to sing along with Bear Down or how to hold her own in an intense game of hockey, but she has almost as much girl inside her as Drew has boy.

Here comes along our little tie breaker. This little being that wouldn’t even necessarily be recognized as a boy if I didn’t dress him in blue. Not that he doesn’t look masculine, rather he’s just an itty bitty baby without any strong sexual identity. I can’t help but look at him and wonder what he will be like.

Will he like cars? Will he be artistic? What will his story be? When you have your first, everything is so unknown that you don’t have the slightest clue what to anticipate. When your second is a different sex, in some ways it feels all new again. But now I know what it’s like to have a boy and I know what it’s like to have a girl. What I don’t know is who this little individual is.

Drew is a boy but he is so unique. He’s a sports addict with a passion unlike any other. Gabby is a girl but she is unique too. She’s creative and imaginative in such an unparalleled way. Who will Noah become? If these kids came with a manual, it would be alllll too easy. So I’ll just have to sit back and watch as my little infant becomes an individual that looks like my others, lives with my others, but becomes himself. His own special self with his own interests and thoughts. And I’m just so excited to see who that is.