Heli beats the clock!

September 16, 2009

I recently ran a 5k.  My goal had been to run it in under 30 minutes.  I practiced by working to pace myself at higher speeds to cut down my time.  I ran to beat the clock.  As the run was happening, I felt like the time was crawling.  I kept telling myself that 30 minutes in the scheme of my life was hardly anything.  Even if it was the worst 30 minutes of my life, it would be over before I knew it.  And now, days later, it was true.  It’s just a teeny tiny memory that happened days ago.  As I fought to beat the clock, I realized that I spend my life racing against the clock.  Getting everything I need to do for work done within working hours, getting dinner ready and cleaned in the shortest amount of time, bathing and grooming Drew as quick as possible, etc.  Why am I racing through my life?  As I rocked my tired baby tonight, for the very first time I wanted the clock to stop.  I wanted the computer work I had ahead, the housework that was waiting for me and time to stop.  Apparently I’m not just trying to race the clock but I’m trying to speed up to the finish line. Is it possible to speed up the less desirable aspects of your life, just to slow down the wonderful times?  After you have been running on fast forward so long, you look back and realize that your whole life sped by.  Does it take your family to be raised and out of the house for you to finally have the time to enjoy your life?  What’s the point then?  If you can’t make the most of the work you enjoy, the nutritious dinner your made, the nice house you keep, and the beautiful child you take care of…then what’s the point?  As I rounded the corner and the big clock told me the great time I was making, I saw my little man cheering on the runners.  I passed the finish line and for a second the clock stopped.  I’m not sure how to make the clock stop in my life, but I think I’m going to try and stop looking at it for awhile.

2 thoughts on “Heli beats the clock!

  1. it's true, life goes by in a blink, so try as hard as you can to slow it down and enjoy every minute you can, because before you know it, your children have grown up right before your eyes. One minute they are small and need you for everything in their life and the next minute they are grown, and they belong to someone else and they don't need you at all. So capture all the wonderful slow times in your life now, so that it won't seem so fast later on.

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